Life

So reader beware this is not the happiest blog ever, but I just wanted to update those that read this on the Nielson's life. So pregnancy has been crazy, I was so sick for a month and a half. I was growing right along. With Jaxon I was SO sick and with Kyleigh I did not get too sick at all, so I had this feeling that it would be a boy. Since Lance is a server we pay for private insurance and they do not cover babies, so I had to get all signed up for medicaid. It sure does take forever, but everything worked out and we got all signed up. So I had my first appointment at 11 weeks, and she felt my uterus and everything and she said I was about right and that put my due date at December 4th. That is just what I figured out. I remembered my other doctor( who moved to Salt Lake) letting me listen to a heartbeat the first visit. I asked this new doctor and she said that it was still too early and we would just do it next time. I just said ok because she is the doctor and went and made my next appointment. So this past memorial day, at about 14 weeks into my pregnancy I went to the gym (because I have a bad addiction) and worked out for about 2 hours and then came home and noticed I was bleeding a little bit. Sorry to those of you that are grossed out, just don't continue. So the bleeding was not much at all, but later in the middle of the night I noticed a little bit more. This time it was darker, so I figured it was just old blood. Tuesday morning I called my doctor and just felt like I should go and be checked out. I was not cramping at all and no longer bleeding, I just wanted to be sure everything was ok. So I went and took the kiddos to grammys and went to the doctor. I get to the doctor and she tells me that the bleeding sounds completely normal and I probably just have a sensitive cervix. Then she proceeds to find a heartbeat. She was having a heart time so we moved into the next room to do a quick ultrasound. She thought she saw a heartbeat, but told me that she would bring me to the ultrasound tech to make sure. So I went back to the waiting room and waited patiently for the ultrasound tech. She called me back and did the ultrasound and told me she did not see anything. She then wanted to try a vaginal ultrasound just to make sure. There was NOTHING there. She then started to explain to me that this was a blighted ovum. I guess fertilization never quite finished. My body made the egg sac, but never finished the yolk sac. The yolk sac becomes the embryo=baby. So my body was producing all the right hormones and making a nice little home for nothing. It was all very weird, because I was very pregnant and then to see nothing there was so strange. So later that day I had a D&C and now I am just loving on my kids. For some reason it makes me feel better to know that there was never a baby in there, because then at least I know my body did not do anything wrong. It was just fluke fertilization pretty much. For now I am just going to enjoy the summer off with my kids and hopefully start getting some fun pictures up of our adventures. Well sorry about the not so happy post, but I just wanted to let people know.
Kathy:)